Recently, a student from our church asked to speak with me. The student asked if I had bad days. I was a bit taken back and smiled "Absolutely." I said. She stated that she has seen me at church and outside of church and no matter where she sees me I am the same. She wondered if like most women I get irritated and bothered. At this point I am amazed. See what she didn't know is at her age I was mad at the world. I wanted others to know the pain I felt. I was sad all the time and my self esteem was low. I fought everything and everybody. I explained to her each of us that God allows to wake up have a choice to be happy or not. We can smile through it all or be mad. I choose to smile....I try to Count it all joy.
I cried going home because something that I thought everyone could see God had removed. For a long time, I thought that hurt and angry girl was still a part of me.
The bible says...
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things become new.
I told her that the question blessed me. God used a child to show me the work he has done in me and the work he still has to do.
WE sometimes are still holding on to a past God has already changed in us.
XOXO A. Best